Trying Tuesday · Uncategorized

Trying Tuesday | Primary Colors

So, I decided to try two things today.  One, a drawing from a reference.  Two, using three colors (the primary colors) and seeing what I could mix.

 

Here’s my reference (thanks Google and The B in Apartment 23…which I highly recommend, great show) (also, look how lazy I am, didn’t even bother to cut the top off):

 

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Preliminary sketch I didn’t even try to fix:

 

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Added layer of yellow:

 

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Added layer of red:

 

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Added a layer of blue:

 

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Realized I forgot to color her shirt:

 

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Layer of yellow on shirt:

 

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Added some fix up colors???:

 

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Lazy background and ink:

 

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Yay!  I did something!  I just love the idea that if you have the three primary colors, you can just make all the other colors.  It’s very exciting.

 

-Smudged

Money Monday · Uncategorized

Money Monday | Short Update

Car repair is important.  I do appreciate my car taking me to my job.

 

Honestly, an emergency fund is for that kind of thing.  Like the flat tire my husband got.  It gives relief when things go wrong.  Now, I’m going to re-fill my emergency fund with money I would have paid toward my loans, but still.  I’m not going to stop kicking my student loans’ butts.

 

Maybe I’m being silly, but the world seems like it’d be a lot freer of a place if debt wasn’t weighing me down.  Like, a job loss wouldn’t be so terrifying if I didn’t have that weighing over my head.  I could breathe and move on.

 

It’s a dream that makes me happy.  I know, however, that debt can hit you very suddenly out of nowhere.  In particular, medical debt.  You don’t choose medical debt, it chooses you.  There’s only so much you can plan, outside of a nice emergency fund of who knows how much money.  You could get hit by a car and your insurance might only cover part of it, you could suddenly get cancer, you could suddenly develop a mental illness (just so you know, schizophrenia frequently makes its first appearance in your 20’s in lots of cases, random bit of information) and need lots of treatment and meds…forever.  And if that happens when you’re just starting to dig yourself out of debt?  That’s rough (honestly, it’s rough in general, this is just insult to injury).  Or right when you’ve gotten out of debt only to be buried again?  For something out of your control?

 

Anxiety can be a very bad thing, but I can’t say that it has ever kept me from being prepared.  Well, there was this one time I was afraid to look at my bank account for a few months…but I got over that.  Now I just plan and plan and plan and plan.  I like planning.  I like knowing what to do when something unexpected happens.  I do kind of hate the part where I don’t actually have the supplies yet to pull off the plan, but I’m getting there.

 

-Smudged

Thinking Thursday · Uncategorized

Thinking Thursday

Today, having just enjoyed 2 hours in the kitchen making some ridiculous cheesy potatoes, I realized that I love taking my time on things I enjoy.

 

I enjoy actually shredding the cheese myself.  I enjoy chopping the potatoes on my own time.  I enjoy folding laundry with my own hands.  I enjoy making spreadsheets that are easy to understand and foolproof.  I love drawing and making pictures.  I even enjoy learning about drawing.

 

The jobs worth doing, are worth doing well.  If your work is what you love, you’ll never work a day in your life.  Other platitudes.

 

But legit.  There are some things I really enjoy, and today I just want to relish in the fact that I can find some joy in the mundane.

 

Life is about the journey after all.

 

-Smudged

Uncategorized · Working Wednesday

Working Wednesday | Late Again

Can it count that I was kind of working on Wednesday?  Also that my computer was unavailable to me?  Heck yes!

 

An awesome friend of mine has a career in the medical world.  She wants to raise money by throwing a fundraiser for her office.  She wants to have one of those paint and sip parties.  She asked me to teach.

 

!!!!!

 

Networking sounded so stupid to me in college?  Like why would I pretend to enjoy small talk with a stranger so I can give them my business card?  But this is technically networking?  Also, I love my friends.  And that they’re thinking of me.

 

I don’t know if her idea will get approved, but I can’t not think about something once it’s in my head.

 

I want to teach something easy, but REALLY impressive looking.  Something with mass appeal.  All my brain keeps coming up with is sunsets.  Or paintings where you peel the tape off later and come up with something cool.  Or a galaxy?  A galaxy could be fun.

 

This totally counts.

 

-Smudged

Trying Tuesday · Uncategorized

Trying Tuesday | Perspective Again

I decided to try perspective again (and probably again and and again and again until I finally understand it).

 

But this time I watched a video because that’s almost like being in class.  So I found the following awesome videos that helped me wrap my brain around the topic:

 

 

 

Look, I’m serious.  I even took notes:

 

 

I even attempted my own thing, which is unfinished because I got tired of it:

 

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Mistakes are so important in art.  More important is recognizing them.  I have so many more mistakes to make, and I am happy about that.

 

-Smudged

Money Monday · Uncategorized

Money Monday | The Why

So I’m in the middle of slogging it through paying off my student loans.  It feels Sisyphean.  Like, I even know my potential payoff date (which is in November!).  But that day seems forever away and almost impossible.  I feel like I’m throwing my money as quickly as I’m making it at this danged loan.  This is the hard part of the financial independence journey, right?  This is the part where I look back in ten years, beaming with pride that I made it through?

 

It’s hard.  Mr. Smudged and I both have aging cars.  Cars that are now throwing lights.  Cars that need some expensive love.  Expensive love that could throw a wrench in my plans for getting these stupid loans to go away.  I have an emergency fund, but I’ll need to refill it if I use it all up.  And that would have to come from my student loan (over)payments.  Depending on the cost to fix, it could push me back two or three months.

 

When I was a kid, I would get scared every time we went for a ride in the car for longer than ten minutes.  What if I had to go to the bathroom?  Genuine terror would fill my heart.  It was silly.  It was ridiculous.  But that same dread fills me up now, what is two months?  Hardly anything!  My heart was set on November.

 

I’m trying to remind myself why I want to be financially independent.  Like it will make me feel better, instead of reminding me that my goals could be facing a setback.

 

I have a dream of all the things I want to do if I can only retire early.

 

I want to learn art and make art and spend so much time looking at art.

 

I want to learn other things, like how to play guitar or how to fix a car.

 

I want to (assuming we have kids) spend so much time with potential future children.

 

I want to wake up without my alarm clock and ease into my day as slowly as I please.

 

I want to have the time and energy to cooking a dinner exactly the way I want it.

 

I want to hang out with friends and still have energy because I didn’t use all of my energy talking to co-workers (who are fine, but it’s just so exhausting).

 

I want to seriously commit to making my own clothes.

 

I want to learn how to knit.

 

I want to spend so much less time in my car.

 

I want to make plans, see that it has snowed, and delay them because I have power over my time and don’t have to risk my life in cold weather.

 

I want to volunteer and help people and be able to be there at a moment’s notice, not trapped at work.

 

I want to spend so much time with my husband.

 

I want to teach potential future children to be compassionate, independent, and to know themselves.

 

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And then there’s the don’ts:

 

I don’t want to hear an alarm clock ever again.

 

I don’t want to feel stressed about taking a day off because I am the pin that holds everything together.

 

I don’t want to have to report my time and activity to anyone.  (Seriously so glad to be done with high school where I had to ask to go to the bathroom).

 

I don’t want to waste my time feeling miserable doing a job that doesn’t appeal to me.  I know your job doesn’t have to fulfill you, but it shouldn’t make you miserable either.

 

I don’t want to have a heart attack at work like my father.

 

I don’t want work to make me into a grumpy, irritable person.

 

I don’t want to waste my youth doing things I don’t care about.

 

I don’t want to feel controlled by the whims of the world and the problems it throws at people who can’t handle it fiscally.

 

-Smudged

Famous Artist Friday · Uncategorized

Famous Artist Friday | Annette Lemieux

Today I’m going outside of my comfortable territory.  I really want to foster an appreciation for multiple genres of art within myself.  So, I’d like to discuss conceptual art and artist I conveniently found on Wikipedia after accidentally looking up Duchamp (who is the guy who signed the urinal, if you’re familiar with that particular story.).

 

As far as I can tell from reading Wikipedia (and I’m hungry and confused, I should really eat some lunch) Conceptual art is really rebellious.  I don’t want to say something like “realistic portraiture is too mainstream.”  I mean more of a “everything is BS, let’s see how far we can take this.”  Which I appreciate.  In a culture that values fame and money, it is fascinating to see people simultaneously break down what makes art art AND sell some fairly ridiculous things to rich people (like a signed urinal).

 

But to my point, I picked Annette Lemieux.  Who was listed on the Conceptual Art page in Wikipedia.  But Wikipedia lists Picture Theory as the art scene/era (I don’t know, I’m only slooooooooowly educating myself).

 

So I looked up Picture Theory.  I have spoken English my entire life but had to look up what the word proposition meant because (even though I totally know what it is!) the context was super unhelpful and didn’t make sense with the definition I know.  I think the idea was basically to use pictures to represent (suggest?  I think that’s the proposition link?) concepts.  To have pictures speak for themselves.

 

I could be totally wrong and would love to be corrected.  Also, if corrected, please act like I know nothing and should be talked to slowly and with small words.

 

My basic understanding of her work is that she takes objects and creates an environment that has a distinct meaning.  I think I remember an important art word:  juxtaposition (when things are placed side by side for comparison…like a giant baby next to a miniature man).

 

This is called Things to Walk Away With (what a heavy title!  I love it!) ( and according to the site I found it on, it is copyrighted to Kent Fine Art, New York © Courtesy of the Artist and Fisher Landau Center for Art.  Citation isn’t something I’m great at.  Also, I really want artists to get their credit and proper due, but am also in debt and cannot really afford to buy awesome art right now.  Someday.

 

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Just look and ponder and think.  Why are these objects together?  Why are you walking away with them?  Just be silent, let your brain think.  I don’t want to put thoughts in your head.

 

That’s something I love about art.  Which is also why it’s hard to go to art museums with people who just don’t get it.  You have to slow down.  You have to shut up.  You have to think.  And that is so beautiful in a world that is so fast.

 

She also has a series called The Strange Life of Objects (which could also be a book).

 

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I mean, look at that.  There’s so much story in that concrete.  People tend to say things like “ugh, I could do that.”  Which honestly, had really scared me away from conceptual art.

 

But here’s the thing.  You didn’t do that.  I didn’t do that.  Also, it’s very impressive to take something simple and create a huge emotional impact.

 

Kudos, Annette Lemieux.

 

-Smudged