I love lists. I have so many to-do lists. I have a little notebook dedicated to lists. Lists of songs to listen to in order to get myself pumped for the day. Lists of fruits and vegetables I’d like to try to grow someday. Lists of really cool artists. Once (HUGE nerd alert), I would open the dictionary at random, find interesting words, and write them down in a little notebook (mixed with words I didn’t know from books).
But my favorite list right now is my clothing do’s and my clothing don’ts lists. See, I used to shop a lot. An unhealthy amount. Product of my raising. Product of my culture. I had an unbelievable amount of clothing. My mother would try to be helpful, if it isn’t completely satisfying when you try something on, then don’t get that. But I fell prey to other people thinking things looked good on me.
Also, I’m working on being a part-time minimalist. I hate thinking too much about what I’m going to wear. It stresses me out. How about I just look nice all the time (unless I’m working and messing up my clothes)? I know VERY well, now anyway, that there are certain things that I will refuse to wear, no matter how much I liked it in the store. Why waste my time and money? Also, why not make my life super easy and make all of my clothes match? I can just grab things at random and just automatically look good! That’s all I want in my life.
I make my lists based on me. On my body shape, on my skin tone, on what makes me feel comfortable, on what makes me feel nice. I think everyone should personalize lists like this to themselves. It’s a little bit of work to make so much of your life easier.
My (personal) clothing don’ts:
- Visible elastic
- Bright colors
- Awkwardly short shirts
- Mini skirts
- White socks
- Bulgy pockets
- Cap sleeves
- Empire waists
- Words/symbols (unless band/movies I love, I don’t generally advertise for free)
- Tight skirts
- Platform shoes
- Too warm colors (yellow and orange, gross)
- Puffy sleeves
- Itchy sweaters
- Anything that causes me pain.
- Anything that rides up and needs fixed constantly
- Transparent clothing
- Brown (I can wax poetic on my hatred of brown clothing/accessories. I’m a cool skin tone, so it isn’t great on me anyway. Also, there’s like a billion shades of brown, good luck matching your belt and your shoes and your purse. You know what’s good? Black. Black always matches black. Black always matches gray. And white. But brown? Not for me.)
- Knee high boots (or higher)
My (personal) clothing do’s:
- Stripes (I love stripes passionately)
- Black clothing
- Teal clothing
- Gray clothing
- Burgundy clothing
- Deep green clothing
- Dresses cut at my waist
- Simple designs on jean pockets (no bedazzling, no sparkles, but not just blank)
- Socks for flats with grips
- Plain t-shirts
- Tank tops that perfectly hide my bra straps
- Skirts that dance when I spin
- Short boots
- Black socks (particularly ankle cut)
- Big, comfy hoodies
- Clothes made to fit me
- Hidden, good-sized pockets
- Blue jeans that actually fit my hips/butt, which is no easy feat
I would love to see other people think of something like this. I mean, you go shopping, you find something you think you like, but it has something on the don’t list? Don’t get it, you won’t wear it. You know you. You do you.
Things I would like in order to really sell my art: printer (for fancy prints), printer (for invoices), scanner, art computer.
Fancy Color Printer: I want the colors to print how they look on the screen. No streaks, no stripes, no weird alterations. I understand that really good printers get very expensive (especially the ink/toner). I also understand that this could possibly be the last thing I purchase, and only purchase after I’ve been working for a while. Honestly, a good Fed Ex printing office can handle this fairly cheaply, it just takes effort to get there.
Mediocre Invoice Printer: I need a printer that I can access quickly so I can print off invoices or receipts. I’d like to be able to do this sooner rather than later because even though I’m not making a lot, I’d like to make my life easier now. Plus, it’s just nice to have a printer around. Alternative, I could go to the library and spend ten cents on every page I print. Or I could spend money and set up one of those cool phone swipey things, but I’m just not in deep enough for that.
Scanner: oh my gosh, this is important. Look, I prefer traditional mediums. Like, a lot. But that’s in part because it’s hard to draw on a screen. If I can get the sketch done on paper first, I’d be more comfortable. Also, I’d really like to digitize my records, for easier tax accounting purposes.
Computer: ok, so I clearly have a computer. But, I share it with my husband, which means it’s impossible to use when he’s home. My college laptop is very broken. Also, his music files and programs take up a lot of that computer. Honestly, I would like a laptop, even better if I can use a pressure sensitive stylus on the screen. I’m sure that drawing with a mouse builds character, but I’m too old for that nonsense. My time on this earth is ticking away and I’m not wasting it redrawing my shaky mouse drawings.
I’ll have to start digging in to this research.
So, I decided to try two things today. One, a drawing from a reference. Two, using three colors (the primary colors) and seeing what I could mix.
Here’s my reference (thanks Google and The B in Apartment 23…which I highly recommend, great show) (also, look how lazy I am, didn’t even bother to cut the top off):
Preliminary sketch I didn’t even try to fix:
Added layer of yellow:
Added layer of red:
Added a layer of blue:
Realized I forgot to color her shirt:
Layer of yellow on shirt:
Added some fix up colors???:
Lazy background and ink:
Yay! I did something! I just love the idea that if you have the three primary colors, you can just make all the other colors. It’s very exciting.
Car repair is important. I do appreciate my car taking me to my job.
Honestly, an emergency fund is for that kind of thing. Like the flat tire my husband got. It gives relief when things go wrong. Now, I’m going to re-fill my emergency fund with money I would have paid toward my loans, but still. I’m not going to stop kicking my student loans’ butts.
Maybe I’m being silly, but the world seems like it’d be a lot freer of a place if debt wasn’t weighing me down. Like, a job loss wouldn’t be so terrifying if I didn’t have that weighing over my head. I could breathe and move on.
It’s a dream that makes me happy. I know, however, that debt can hit you very suddenly out of nowhere. In particular, medical debt. You don’t choose medical debt, it chooses you. There’s only so much you can plan, outside of a nice emergency fund of who knows how much money. You could get hit by a car and your insurance might only cover part of it, you could suddenly get cancer, you could suddenly develop a mental illness (just so you know, schizophrenia frequently makes its first appearance in your 20’s in lots of cases, random bit of information) and need lots of treatment and meds…forever. And if that happens when you’re just starting to dig yourself out of debt? That’s rough (honestly, it’s rough in general, this is just insult to injury). Or right when you’ve gotten out of debt only to be buried again? For something out of your control?
Anxiety can be a very bad thing, but I can’t say that it has ever kept me from being prepared. Well, there was this one time I was afraid to look at my bank account for a few months…but I got over that. Now I just plan and plan and plan and plan. I like planning. I like knowing what to do when something unexpected happens. I do kind of hate the part where I don’t actually have the supplies yet to pull off the plan, but I’m getting there.
Today, having just enjoyed 2 hours in the kitchen making some ridiculous cheesy potatoes, I realized that I love taking my time on things I enjoy.
I enjoy actually shredding the cheese myself. I enjoy chopping the potatoes on my own time. I enjoy folding laundry with my own hands. I enjoy making spreadsheets that are easy to understand and foolproof. I love drawing and making pictures. I even enjoy learning about drawing.
The jobs worth doing, are worth doing well. If your work is what you love, you’ll never work a day in your life. Other platitudes.
But legit. There are some things I really enjoy, and today I just want to relish in the fact that I can find some joy in the mundane.
Life is about the journey after all.
Can it count that I was kind of working on Wednesday? Also that my computer was unavailable to me? Heck yes!
An awesome friend of mine has a career in the medical world. She wants to raise money by throwing a fundraiser for her office. She wants to have one of those paint and sip parties. She asked me to teach.
Networking sounded so stupid to me in college? Like why would I pretend to enjoy small talk with a stranger so I can give them my business card? But this is technically networking? Also, I love my friends. And that they’re thinking of me.
I don’t know if her idea will get approved, but I can’t not think about something once it’s in my head.
I want to teach something easy, but REALLY impressive looking. Something with mass appeal. All my brain keeps coming up with is sunsets. Or paintings where you peel the tape off later and come up with something cool. Or a galaxy? A galaxy could be fun.
This totally counts.
I decided to try perspective again (and probably again and and again and again until I finally understand it).
But this time I watched a video because that’s almost like being in class. So I found the following awesome videos that helped me wrap my brain around the topic:
Look, I’m serious. I even took notes:
I even attempted my own thing, which is unfinished because I got tired of it:
Mistakes are so important in art. More important is recognizing them. I have so many more mistakes to make, and I am happy about that.