Life is weird.
Life is weird.
I am not at a point in my life where I plan these posts in advance. My blog life is like my financial life, I know just enough to know I need to get better, but I’m not there yet.
This blog is for me, to keep me on track. I want to keep mmyself working on the things that really matter to me. Which is why Working Wednesday is so important to me. It reminds me that what I do can have value. That I have projects.
But today, I’m going for a jog and then to the movies and then to bed.
No anxiety. Some days you just need to live a little.
Nothing too fascinating today. I’m trying to design an ideal office for myself.
I would like (in perfect dream world):
And obviously a rolling chair and a stool. And possibly some bookshelves. And if we’re going full out perfect dream world, I want a hammock too.
I’m all about not spending money. I’m also all about getting exercise. I’m not paying for a gym membership. My sister-in-law snuck me into her YMCA a few times, and though the classes were fun, it wasn’t for me. Number one, if I have to travel (which takes time) to go exercise? It’s not happening. Number two, I felt really sleazy sneaking in. She was cool with it, but it wasn’t my thing. Number three, I called to inquire about prices (it was like $75 a month per person, no freaking way), they absolutely do not let you pay per class. At least at that YMCA.
I was discouraged, to say the least. That’s about the point I decided to start the Couch to 5k program (that I never finished). It was a great start and got me consistent. I quit because I was really sick of timing myself and even more sick of pushing myself. I just wanted to get the recommended amount of exercise and be done with it. So I kept jogging, but without the timing (which is irritating AND stresses me out) and without pushing myself (it was hard enough to get myself outside). I may walk up hills, but at least I’m exercising (also, not running up hills seems to be good for my feet). There is a VERY serious problem with jogging in most locations: weather. I’ll happily jog in mild rain. I’ve even jogged in temperatures that were technically freezing. But I won’t jog when there’s thunder. I won’t jog when the sidewalks are covered in ice. I will try to jog when the humidity is making it hard to breathe when I’m walking, but I will take it easy on myself. I was afraid to break the habit. Had to keep the chain going. So, when I can’t go outside, I find videos on YouTube.
There are so many great options. So many. Including some unexpected ones. While I recommend Pop Sugar Fitness, Fitness Blender, and Yoga with Adrienne, you can find some options that will make you laugh while you exercise. Once, I aerobocized along with a video clearly from the 80s run by a mother daughter duo. The mother, for whatever reason, would gleefully cheer “hot dog” when she liked the direction the exercise went. I felt ridiculous, but no one could see me. Here’s a fun thing my high school friends would do: ironically AND un-ironically watch/exercise to Richard Simmons videos together. No idea why, but it’s a treasured memory.
For your viewing pleasure (also, my bad, it’s early 90s): https://youtu.be/LSvkG2xa3xs
Sometimes I just look at someone’s art and am awed at what they can do. And also wonder how on earth they even came up with the idea.
Enter, Karen LaMonte. She makes large, glass sculptures. They. Look. Like. Ghost. Dresses. I am in love.
I’m still confused about using pictures. All I can say is that she has a gorgeous collection of pictures of her art, and that she inspires me to go re-read some Nancy Drew books with fake ghosts. Looking at her art makes me feel like a kid who wanted to solve a mystery that involved a ghost in fancy dress-ware.
I love lists. I have so many to-do lists. I have a little notebook dedicated to lists. Lists of songs to listen to in order to get myself pumped for the day. Lists of fruits and vegetables I’d like to try to grow someday. Lists of really cool artists. Once (HUGE nerd alert), I would open the dictionary at random, find interesting words, and write them down in a little notebook (mixed with words I didn’t know from books).
But my favorite list right now is my clothing do’s and my clothing don’ts lists. See, I used to shop a lot. An unhealthy amount. Product of my raising. Product of my culture. I had an unbelievable amount of clothing. My mother would try to be helpful, if it isn’t completely satisfying when you try something on, then don’t get that. But I fell prey to other people thinking things looked good on me.
Also, I’m working on being a part-time minimalist. I hate thinking too much about what I’m going to wear. It stresses me out. How about I just look nice all the time (unless I’m working and messing up my clothes)? I know VERY well, now anyway, that there are certain things that I will refuse to wear, no matter how much I liked it in the store. Why waste my time and money? Also, why not make my life super easy and make all of my clothes match? I can just grab things at random and just automatically look good! That’s all I want in my life.
I make my lists based on me. On my body shape, on my skin tone, on what makes me feel comfortable, on what makes me feel nice. I think everyone should personalize lists like this to themselves. It’s a little bit of work to make so much of your life easier.
My (personal) clothing don’ts:
My (personal) clothing do’s:
I would love to see other people think of something like this. I mean, you go shopping, you find something you think you like, but it has something on the don’t list? Don’t get it, you won’t wear it. You know you. You do you.